System Life Support Soundtrack Songs

System Life Support Soundtrack Songs: Lyricist & Songwriter Jill Thrussell

Track 1: Good Intentions/Good Intentions Broken Promises to Your Heart or Mine
Track 2: Living in My Fears
Track 3: When Pain Lives Forgiveness Can't Give/The Pain Inside of Me
Track 4: Your Currency of Pain/You Keep Trading My Heart For Your Currency of Pain/My Heart Pays the Price of Your Pain/The Price of Your Happiness/My Heart Pays the Price of Your Happiness (Price of Your Happiness is Always My Pain/Why is the Price of Your Happiness Always My Pain)
Track 5: Did You Feel My Pain
Track 6: Broken Shadows Fall Across My Heart
Track 7: If Only I Knew/If I Only Knew/The Reality of You If Only I Knew Soft Soul Version Sung by Colette Compton & Beats by DJ Slava Full Song Sung a capella by Colette Compton
Track 8: Stuck in a Traffic Jam of Heartbreak
Track 9: Ghosts of the Heart/Ghosts of Yesterday
Track 10: Let Me Shield Your Heart
Track 11: Tug of Love
Track 12: Pulse of Passion
Track 13: I've Packed (Thrown) That Hurt Away

Good Intentions/Good Intentions Broken Promises to Your Heart or Mine (pending finalization)

Broken promises,
Rainy days and hurt hearts,
Full of heartbreak,
And I'm wondering why,
Your good intentions,
Don't come by often,
Or stay for very long,
Coz your good intentions,
Just seem to rush away,
Like the night flees from the day.

Your good intentions,
Don't seem to last very long,
Because your promises to yourself,
Don't seem to live for very long.

Chorus
So I've noticed that,
Your good intentions,
Don't stick around for very long,
And that your good intentions,
Don't live (in your life) for long,
Coz when your words first ignite,
Your promises burn out so bright,
Then each word disappears,
So quickly from sight,
Just like the daylight,
Chases away each night,
But I'm just wondering,
If your good intentions towards me,
Are broken promises to your heart or mine.

Broken plans,
Stormy nights and hurt hearts,
Full of your mistakes,
And I'm wondering why,
Your good intentions,
Don't seem to give,
But just take,
Coz your good intentions,
Just subtract from my heart daily,
Like the night takes away the day easily.

Your good intentions,
Don't seem to live for every long,
Because your promises to my heart,
Don't seem to be very strong.

Hopeful tomorrows,
Healing days and nights,
Full of possibilities,
But I'm still wondering why,
Your good intentions,
Never materialize in reality,
And always just capsize,
Coz your good intentions,
Just disintegrate every day,
Like a broken promise that lost its way.

Your good intentions,
Don't seem to live for every long,
Because your promises to our hearts,
Don't endure and just seem to fall apart.

Chorus
So I've noticed that,
Your good intentions,
Don't stick around for very long,
And that your good intentions,
Don't live (in your life) for long,
Coz when your words first ignite,
Your promises burn out so bright,
Then each word disappears,
So quickly from sight,
Just like daylight,
Chases away each night,
But I'm still wondering,
If your good intentions towards me,
Are broken promises to your heart or mine.

So your good intentions,
No longer make my heart warm,
Coz your good intentions,
Never live for very long,
And no matter what you say,
That you'll do,
I know deep down inside of me,
Your good intentions,
Will never manifest in reality,
Coz your good intentions,
Don't give my heart any truth,
And are just your broken promises in disguise,
That come from inside a broken you.

But I'm still asking you honestly,
Are your good intentions meant to be,
Broken promises to your heart,
Or just fictional promises that you make to me.

If Only I Knew/The Reality of You

Every day seconds of pain brush against my cheeks,
And every day you make my heart weep in defeat,
My life by your side is a painful path to walk,
So I must retreat,
And leave your mountains of hurtful defeat.

Chorus
If only I knew, if only I knew the reality of you, (If only I knew, if I only knew the reality of you,)
If only I knew the rocky roads you'd take me through,
If only I knew the heartless heart that lives in you,
If only I knew, if only I knew the reality of you, (If only I knew, if I only knew the reality of you,)
If only I knew how you'd destroy my life and heart, (If I only knew how you'd destroy my life and heart)
Then I could have walked away,
Right from the very start,
If only I knew how many lies would drip from your lips, (If I only knew how many lies would drip from your lips,)
Then I could have saved my heart,
From your painful, unromantic hardships,
If only I knew, if only I knew the reality of you, (If only I knew, if I only knew the reality of you,)
Then I could have saved my heart for a love that's really true.

Every week hours of regret rush through my thoughts,
And every day I remember my heart that you forgot,
My life is just a painful reflection of your misery,
So I must retreat,
Coz my heart can't climb your mountains of defeat.

Every month weeks of hurt rub against my limbs,
And every day I try to forgive you but it means nothing,
My heart in your hands is nothing but a sad love story,
So I must retreat,
Coz my heart breaks on your mountains of defeat.

Final Extended Chorus
If I only knew, if I only knew the reality of you, (If I only knew, if only I knew the reality of you,)
If I only knew the rocky roads you'd take me through,
If I only knew the heartless heart that lives in you,
If I only knew, if I only knew the reality of you, (If I only knew, if only I knew the reality of you,) (If only I knew, if only I knew the reality of you,)
If I only knew how you'd destroy my life and heart,
Then I could have walked away,
Right from the very start,
If I only knew how many lies would drip from your lips, (If only I knew how many lies would drip from your lips,)
Then I could have saved my heart,
From your painful, unromantic hardships,
If I only knew the mirage of your love was fake,
If I only knew all you'd deliver to my heart was heartbreak,
If I only knew the only person that you love is you,
If only I knew, if I only knew the reality of you, (If I only knew, if only I knew the reality of you,)
Then I could have saved my heart for a love that's really true.

Alternative Final Extended Chorus (with variations)
If I only knew, if only I knew the reality of you,
If I only knew the rocky roads you'd take me through,
If I only knew the heartless heart that lives in you,
If I only knew, if only I knew the reality of you,
If I only knew how you'd destroy my life and heart, (If only I knew how you'd destroy my life and heart,)
Then I could have walked away,
Right from the very start,
If I only knew how many lies would drip from your lips, (If only I knew how many lies would drip from your lips,)
Then I could have saved my heart,
From your painful, unromantic hardships,
If I only knew the mirage of your love was fake,
If I only knew all you'd deliver to my heart was heartbreak,
If I only knew the only person that you love is you,
If only I knew, if I only knew the reality of you, (If I only knew, if only I knew the reality of you,)
Then I could have saved my heart for a love that's really true.

Pulse of Passion

Chorus
Can you feel the pulse of passion,
Between our two beating hearts,
Can you feel the pulse of passion,
Waiting for our hearts to start,
Coz our two hearts should unite in love,
And our pulse of passion,
Will guide us through if things get tough,
Can you feel the pulse of passion,
Pulling our hearts into our fate,
Can you feel the pulse of passion,
Coz our destiny can't wait,
So our two hearts should unite in romance,
Coz we really need to give,
Our pulse of passion a passionate, romantic chance.

Did You Feel My Pain

Tell me how did your heart feel,
When you betrayed our tomorrow,
Did you feel my pain,
Did you feel my hurt,
And what did you think about,
When you cast our love into that fire of hurt,
Questions tug away inside my heart,
That ask if my name was on your lips,
Or was I just someone that you forgot about,
That just lives inside your maybes and in your doubts.

Did you feel my pain,
Did your heart feel the strain,
Did you feel my pain,
Or did you think that I'd just do the same.

Chorus
Did you feel my pain,
When you made my heart cry,
Did you feel my pain,
When you hurt my heart deep inside,
Tell me how did you feel,
When you betrayed our tomorrow yesterday, (today)
Did you feel my pain,
Did you feel my hurt that day,
Or was our love just something,
You conveniently forgot about,
And just a lie that meant nothing,
To your cheating mind, body and heart,
That just slipped out of your lying mouth.

Tell me how did your heart feel,
When you killed my heart with arrows of betrayal,
Did you feel my pain,
Did you feel my hurt,
And where did you go,
When you stepped out of our love,
Questions tug away inside my heart,
That ask did you think I'd give you back the same hurt,
Our was our love just something that you forgot about,
That really exists only inside my heart.

Did you feel my pain,
Did your heart take the blame,
Did you feel my pain,
Or did you think that I'd just do the same.

Tell me what did your mind think,
When you made our love capsize and sink,
Did you feel my pain,
Did you feel my hurt,
And how much to your heart,
Was our love and happiness worth,
Questions tug away inside my heart,
That ask if you thought my heart should pay the price,
Or was our love just something that you do,
When it's convenient and when it suits you.

Did you feel my pain,
Did you feel any shame,
Did you feel my pain,
Or did you think that I'd just do the same.

Chorus
Did you feel my pain,
When you made my heart cry,
Did you feel my pain,
When you hurt my heart deep inside,
Tell me how did you feel,
When you betrayed our tomorrow yesterday, (today)
Did you feel my pain,
Did you feel my hurt that day,
Or was our love just something,
That you conveniently forgot about,
And another lie that meant nothing,
To your cheating mind, body and heart,
That just slipped out of your lying mouth.

Tell me what did your eyes see,
When you did all that wrong to me,
Did you feel my pain,
Did you feel my hurt,
Or was our love just nothing but a casualty, (to your heart and you)
When you chose to inflict that misery onto me,
Questions tug away inside my heart,
That ask did my heart just become a willing sacrifice to you,
Or was our love just something that you forgot to do,
Because inside your heart our love was never really true.

Tell me did you feel my pain,
Did you regret your shame,
Did you feel my pain,
Or did you think that I'd just do the same.

Chorus
Did you feel my pain,
When you made my heart cry,
Did you feel my pain,
When you hurt my heart deep inside,
Tell me how did you feel,
When you betrayed our tomorrow yesterday, (today)
Did you feel my pain,
Did you feel my hurt that day,
Or was our love just something,
That you conveniently forgot about,
And another lie that meant nothing,
To your cheating mind, body and heart,
That just slipped out of your lying mouth.

Tell me did you feel my pain,
Did you feel my hurt,
And did our love get in your way,
When you wanted to be untrue and play,
Was our love just your sacrifice,
And did my heart just have to pay that price,
And how would you feel,
If I gave your heart that same painful deal,
But there's no answer to my questions,
That your lips can satisfy,
Because your actions have proven to my heart,
That the reality of you is just full of lies,
So now I can see that our fake love is finally through,
Coz inside your heart our love was never really true.

I've Thrown That Hurt Away

Chorus
I've thrown that hurt away,
And put in a garbage bin,
Coz it means nothing to me,
But a tear in my heartstrings,
I've thrown that hurt away,
Packed it in an old suitcase,
And sent it far from my door,
So it won't be felt by my heart anymore,
I've thrown that hurt away,
And there is no return address for you,
So soon your hurt will never,
Return to my heart's doorstep and nor will you,
I've thrown that hurt away,
Coz that hurt that you delivered to my heart,
Means absolutely nothing to me anymore.

Let Me Shield Your Heart

If you let me hold your heart in my hands,
I'll protect you from life's harsh demands,
Though life doesn't wait for us to decide,
And it can be such a hard rollercoaster ride,
If you let me face life's hardships next to you,
Then I'll shield your heart from life's bitter edges and any untruths.

Chorus
Let me shield your heart from hurt,
Let me shelter you from pain,
And let me give your heart,
What love needs to be sustained,
Let me shield your heart from pain,
Let me protect your heart from sorrow,
And let me give your heart,
The promise of a loving tomorrow,
Let me shield your heart from lies,
Not shame or blame in disguise,
Let me love with you happiness,
Not bundles of unromantic stress,
Let me shield your heart,
Let me love any broken parts,
And if you let me guide you through life's stormy rains,
Together we can love our way through life's rocky terrain.

If you let me take your heart on a happy route,
I'll shelter you from the past that hurt your heart's roots,
Coz the past leaves your side and then carries on,
And you have to pick up the pieces and try to be strong,
But if you let me walk through life beside you,
Then I'll shield your heart from life's hurtful history and painful residue.

If you let me love the broken parts of your heart,
I'll build a shelter of love for you that doesn't fall apart,
Because life will be full of love when our hearts unite,
And then we can find a life and love that intertwine in delight,
So if you let my heart beat through life next to your heart,
Then I'll shield your heart from life's bitter moments and any painful parts.

If you can let me shield your heart,
I'll give your heart a fresh start,
And any painful memories will leave,
Coz your heart will no longer grieve,
If you can let me shield your heart,
I'll refresh your life in every part,
And the hope of life's joy will live again,
Coz my love is something you can fully trust in,
Let me shield your heart,
Let me love any broken parts,
And if you let me guide you through life's stormy rains,
Together we can love our way through life's rocky terrain.

Living in My Fears

Twisted lies come to the surface full of pain,
And the bitter truths once buried in shame,
The lies of fake love wearing a mask of pretense,
Which capsized my heart coz your love has no real substance,
For so long I've tried and tried and tried again,
But I've just lived in my fears coz our love I can't sustain.

Chorus
I'm living in my fears,
And trying to avoid the pain,
I'm living with the heartbreak,
And with all the lies, pain and shame,
My mind's living in my fears,
But the hurt interrupts,
Coz your painful hardships continue,
And never seem to subside or give up,
So my heart's living in my fears,
That don't give my mind a rest,
Coz that's what your fake heart gave me,
When I put your love to the test.

Bitter realities with no elegant words,
Real hard facts to swallow that cut my heart like a sword,
So everything's crashing to the broken ground,
In an earthquake of heartbreak that has no pretty sounds,
Coz for so long I've persevered and tried so hard to regain,
But I've just lived in my fears coz our love is just full of pain.

Love doesn't seem to really know us at all,
And reality shows that bitter truth as my heart toils,
Though I'm trying to accept the ugly, harsh, rotten facts,
I'm finding it hard to process on your part what we lack,
For so long I've held our relationship together with my heart's broken love strings,
But I've just lived in my fears coz to your heart our love means nothing.

Stuck in a Traffic Jam of Heartbreak

Chorus
I'm stuck in a traffic jam of heartbreak,
And there's no happy fast lane just painful mistakes,
I'm stuck in a traffic jam of heartbreak full of hurt,
And there's no way out of that maze of painful ruts,
So I'm stuck in a traffic jam of heartbreak paralyzed by shock,
Coz the hurt you put me through ties my heart up in hurtful knots.

The Pain That Lives Inside of Me

For so long I have lived with,
The pain that lives inside of me,
With the scars so deep,
That no-one could see,
But every day you dig up that pain,
And then profit from that hurt,
Without any reservations, remorse or restraint,
So the pain that lives inside of me,
Became your meal ticket of luxury,
And just your daily currency of painful misery.

Chorus
The pain that lives inside of me,
That I buried so deep,
You dig up every day,
And you make my heart weep,
The pain that lives inside of me,
That you profit from,
You bring to the surface,
Every day with your scorn,
And the pain that lives inside of me,
Is your free ride so nastily,
And your meal ticket,
To an easy life and street,
So the pain that lives inside of me,
Is your lifestyle of luxury,
Because the pain that lives inside of me,
Became your currency of painful misery.

Every day you trade the pain,
That lives inside of me,
Like I am just your ticket to luxury,
Every day you make those scars bleed,
And pay not a single heed,
To build your wealth of misery,
From my hurt and my suffering for free,
So the pain that lives inside of me,
Became your meal ticket of luxury,
And just your daily currency of painful misery.

So many years have gone by,
But no change ever came,
So those scars grew deeper every day,
Because you rub your salt of hurt,
Into those wounds time and time again,
Without any concern, care or restraint,
As you triumph over my life again and again,
So the pain that lives inside of me,
Became your meal ticket of luxury,
And just your daily currency of painful misery.

The pain that lives inside of me,
Never goes away,
So I still carry that pain around every day,
Because every single day,
You dig up that painful hurt,
And make me live and relive,
Those deep, hard, painful hurts,
You rub your salt into my wounds,
And continue to profit from my pain,
So that the hurt cannot leave my heart,
Or ever refrain.

So as you enjoy your life of luxury,
That you built from my suffering and misery,
The pain that you cause me still remains,
And is just painfully the same,
Because every single day,
You still rub my face into that painful dirt,
And every day,
You still triumph from the heart that you hurt,
So that pain never heals inside my heart,
And never leaves me,
Not even one single part,
Because every day you still profit from my misery,
And from the happiness and joy that you stole,
From my life, my heart and me.

Your Currency of Pain/Why Do You Keep Trading My Heart for Your Currency of Pain/My Heart Pays the Price of Your Pain/The Price of Your Happiness/My Heart Pays the Price of Your Happiness (Price of Your Happiness is Always My Pain/Why is the Price of Your Happiness Always My Pain)

Chorus
Why do you keep trading my heart for
Your currency of pain,
And why is the price of your happiness,
Always my pain,
Why does the price of your happiness,
Beat down on my heart like stormy rains,
And why is your currency of pain,
A cost that my heart always has to pay,
Why is the price of your happiness,
Something that you trade for my heart easily,
And why is your currency of pain,
Always my heart's hurt in that painful way.